Friday, July 24, 2009


Many thanks to all who read the CHRISTIAN HEIR.
I have reached my 100th entry.
Seems like it was just yesterday.
You encourage me to love.


...yeah, its the weekend.
My sons are at home and I am going to chill.
No parties, gigs, music events, theatre, shopping or sex.
OOPS too much info.
I am going to let me relax and maybe do some visiting with the Party Mom at the Resort For The Elderly.
Did I tell you how hard I laughed the other day in the rose garden?
You know those pink plastic pitchers they have in the hospital?
Well, Kay, she's 98? One of the older gurls...
While seated around the round picnic table, umbrella in tact, chairs, uh, wheelchairs facing North, sun shining...She's pouring WATER in each of their small Dixie (bathroom size) cups,
graciously asking if anyone would care for a refill.
What a pip!
I 'm busting up cause it reminds me of the night before
when I watched friends do SHOTS at the bar.
The gurls repeated this ritual until someone had to pee.
So, I may go with my sons to visit Grandma and friends and be entertained in some capacity.
But more so just to love my Mom while I can.
I miss my Dad and having my Mom out of the house is making me sad.
There is all so much going on in this part of my Journey.
Word to the wise:
Enjoy this day for we have no idea what tomorrow brings.
See you Monday.


Nike used to have a slogan which read: Just Do It.
That is exactly how I feel today.
Recently, Life, or at least this portion of the Journey has been difficult for me.
I feel like I wish I could just meet the deadline, at the very least.
I wish I could complete the task, get the wish, seal the deal.
If I am not questioning my health, I am answering someone else's dilemma.
If I am up Spiritually, others are down emotionally.
If I choose to play, others insist on playing games.
If I walk, then inevitably someone runs.
If I give, there they are with either hand outstretched, ready for the take.
My patience has turned to patients.
I no longer read but am being read.
I have been supervised, compromised, dignified, satisfied, and adored.
I have experienced rejection, completion, resistance, defiance and love.
My mind (which never stops running, probably with scissors) is tired.
I wish, be careful... for a quiet in my comprehension of it all.
A "Be still and know I am GOD" convention.
I visited my daughter and grandboys last night...
While my sons slept in my home.
Late in the evening I watched over them, wondering if we did all we could in raising them properly.
Had we given them all they needed to be successful?
I went to bed crying, thinking I might have failed, since my Life was in such disarray.
I asked GOD to help me to accept what Plan He has designed for me.
I aked Him to allow me to know that He is All Powerful and if, indeed, I had made a mistake anywhere, all I need do was ask Him and Believe and He would surely fix it!
So, I am, we are, in a win win situation.
No matter what, GOD has our back.
Everywhere, all the time, everyday.
No matter what the problem may seem to be, realize, for GOD there is no problem.
Thank Him in advance for this Journey and know what you have is yours,
(by way of Our Awesome Creator)

Thursday, July 23, 2009


In stare acuta, otravirea se produce la tinerii fumatori.
I have spent a good portion of the morning trying to IGoogle a translation for these words.
Apparently I am supposed to figure it out by myself.
Having wanting to be a linguist by the time I grow up, this challenge makes me smile.
However, this picture is terrifying to me.
The words below it seem to give a certain warning about smoking.
My translation would be: other product contained (found) to be harmful in cigatertte smoke.
***This is just an educated guess and if any of you want to search for further for me, I will be truly grateful.***
I digress?!
Several of our family are or have been smokers.
I quit for what will be 7 years in December.
My then husband quit too and I must say neither one of us gained smokers' weight.
However our 2 children, yes you know which ones you are...still give half their earned income to the corner store merchant or the guy behind the glass at the gas station for smoke.
I had to wash my hair and come to work with a fuzzy cause last nights gig had smokers present.
Old folks, too, smoking.
Discouraging to me ....
They must feel like they is too old to turn back so what the hay!
Not at $7.00 a pack.
Yup, Ked you owe me a dime to the 100th degree.
I got to go.
Malc's coming home and it is no where like I would like it to look at the OK Corral.
Or is it the Homestead? I forgot.
Maybe its Third Floor Level.
Not a blogging day folks.
Give me time to get it together.
In the meantime, grow and have Faith while you do it.

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

Feeling better

I have to say I haven't felt up to par lately
but I really thought it was just because I am on the go...
I guess I should slow down, Life is different now.
As my friend says, "We are on this side of Life now.."
So I guess I should relax a little more but, do still enjoy.
I got a (fake) tattoo. *said with singing voice*.
It's kinda kool.
It was kooler putting it on.
I went to hear music, twice.
I celebrated my neigbors birthday...dinner, red velvet cake and great homemade ice cream!
I sat back and cried at the time warp my gurl's friends are in.
Went to my gurls birthday party.
Nothing ever changes with her.
Except a few pounds and maybe switching up cigarettes.
(Geeez, who smokes any more?)
But this night I was looking around the room scoping out the peeps, diggin' the scene with my gansta' lean... OMG, where was I?
Somewhere in the way back there '80's, I think.
I hated the eighties.
But somehow those Tropical printed rayon Hawaiian looking boxed one pocket shirts were everywhere!
And all those big ol' ladies sized up to an 18...
Just because you didn't have to go to the Big Ladies Shop don't mean you have to show your bumpy knees.
I wore a cute lil sundress. Yes my Leave- it -to -Cleavage was astounding.
It brought on remarks about Wally and the Beaver but I did stay true to my best ChristianHeir image.
That's true to staying on this side of Life.
Give 'em what 'cha still got!
The music was all of Al Greenesce.
The food was high in cholesterol, the true lowdown of fat and the pulled pork was fought over.
There was even an announcement to not be so dang ghetto and remember everybody wanted to eat. Folks continued to respond nicely to me, cheering me on with old stories of our cheerleader days and past sweethearts.
One thing, our children are grown.
The are unfortunately following out our dreams and aspirations, making me wonder if I am too late.
I think this is just a down week and soon I will come around and thank GOD once more for where I am on this journey.
I have yet to find someone I would want to exchange with.
Be happy and know God loves you and so do I the end of the day.

The Word For Day

1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.
2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.
3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.
4. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick.
Your friends and parents will. Stay in touch.
5. Pay off your credit cards every month.
6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.
8. It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it.
9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.
10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.
11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.
12. It's OK to let your children see you cry.
13. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.
15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God never blinks.
16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.
17. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
18. W hatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.
19. It's never too late to have a happy childhood...
But the second one is up to you and no one else.
20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer.
21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie.
Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is special.
22. Over prepare, then go with the flow.
23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.
24. The most important sex organ is the brain.
25. No one is in charge of your happiness but you.
26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words 'In five years, will this matter?'
27. Always choose life.
28. Forgive everyone everything.
29. What other people think of you is none of your business.
30. Time heals almost everything. Give time time.
31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
32. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
33. Believe in miracles.
34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do.
35. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.
36.. Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young.
37. Your children get only one childhood.
38. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.
39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.
40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else’s, we’d grab ours back.
41. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
42. The best is yet to come.
43. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
44. Yield.
45. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift.

Monday, July 20, 2009


I came across this article and found it most encoraging!
Do enjoy.
Whether we are aware of it or not, faith permeates each day of our lives. Everything we believe in is based on some form of it. Faith in oneself. Faith in each other. Faith in life - or in a Higher Power. These are the three overarching areas of faith that enrichen and deepen our lives, and quite possibly hold us together in an ever-changing and often frightening world.
What is faith? In broad terms, all faith - religious, spiritual or secular - is a belief that life is worth living no matter what obstacles are thrown in our way. We have all seen or heard examples of what faith can help people do. Such as a survivor of the Holocaust, who witnessed unspeakable horrors, who is still able to rebuild a life... an accident victim who transcends a disability into a new direction.... an artist, despite rejection, who remains creative and makes an important contribution. Many times over, we have seen that when all else is stripped away - safety, comfort, security, home, country, loved ones - faith is what has kept people going. It is both a basic instinct and a spiritual balm.
Faith can strengthen our capacity to meet challenges and face adversity. It gives us a mooring, a direction and a purpose - and, in so doing, lends meaning to our existence. But faith is often difficult to hold onto. One moment life feels full of possibility - and the next, it seems cruel and hopeless. When we are faced with difficult or terrible things, our faith is challenged, and sometimes momentarily lost. What then are we left with?
Doubt is often referred to as the opposite of faith, but is truly its handmaiden. Doubt can lead us to question and think critically about our beliefs. It often helps to strengthen or reaffirm faith. Much closer to the opposite of faith is despair - disconnection from life. Salzberg writes, "Without a sense of possibility, we would be stuck - isolated, hopeless, and unspeakably sad." Many of us have experienced this type of sadness.
When you feel as if you are about to be plunged into the depths of despair, it's important to consider the very real possibility that you are not seeing the big picture. The events in our lives are so vastly interconnected that it is impossible to know all the factors that contribute to a difficult situation. You may think you are powerless, but you don't really know for sure. You may see injustices taking place and begin to lose faith in humanity, but you may not be seeing the whole picture. None of us can know all the elements involved, even in our own situations - or what the future might bring.
One of the most striking lessons Salzberg teaches is that life is ever-changing - and so are we. Change doesn't always feel great, but it does allow for new possibilities. "Life is not likely to deliver only pleasant events," she writes. "Faith entails the understanding that we don't know how things will unfold. Even so, faith allows us to claim the possibility that we ourselves might change in ways that will allow us to recognize and trust the helping hands stretched toward us. It enables us to aspire to a better life than the one we have inherited."
Since everything, including this life, is temporary, allow yourself a moment to take a step back and take a deep breath. Reaffirm what faith means to you. In good times and bad, faith in yourself - which is the touchstone of faith in life - is the one thing that can remain steady at your center, getting you through the changes and keeping you open to all the new possibilities.


All weekend long I have been thinking about this particular word, PROMISE.
Webster refers to it as to pledge or vow.
It is often thought as when someone keeps their word, a covenant or agreement.
Its a declaration that something will or will not be done.
Expressed assurance; on which expectation is based.
It is the effect of an expressed assurance.
An indication of what may be expected, Blessed Assurance is how God refers to it.
His Promises...
The future excellence or achievement.
To make promised.
To make promise of something.
To assure.
To engage to join in marriage.
When someone promises you something, it is with (a) great Faith they implement this promise with.
It is an honor to have someone give their word and promise to you.
I was promised a peaceful day this weekend.
It certainly took valued time of which a great amount of prayer was placed into the promise sent, I am sure.
I had a great peaceful weekend.
Probably because I took that promise and planted it in the soil of my Journey.
If I hadn't read the text clearly, or listened to the words, I might have missed Gods blessing for me towards a promise for a peaceful day.
Promise is a strong word.
I will strive to be a promise to someone else as someone has gifted me the pleasure.
I promise.